Getting back to normal after this miscarriage has not been easy for me. My body has not wanted to cooperate and I have been left only with questions and concern. Even after two visits with doctors I haven't known what was going on with my body. Why wasn't I getting better? Last night I found out why and recieved the closure I didn't know I needed.
I wrote on September 19th that I felt cheated, as I had no little fetus to say goodbye to. Last night I was given that and I am still shocked at the peace it has brought to me. I thought that opportunity was lost to me and I felt that was alright. But last night I realized how different it was to actually have something to say goodbye to. The best way to describe how I feel is that even though I thought I had it before, now I really do feel Closure. The worst is behind me and I feel certain I can finally get back to normal.
As I lay awake contemplating this trial turned miracle my mind began putting together the following words:
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I'm so sorry to hear of your loss Maria (and Jeremy). I lost two myself so I know the pain you are feeling. God always opens a window after closing a door like this, you will understand in the future why this child needed to go home before you go to meet him or her. You will be in my prayers tonight.
Love, Laura (Rob's wife)
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