For the past six years I have been a working mom with summers off. I love being home with my girls in the summer and am able to stay busy and productive. It has been a much needed break from the crazy life of being a working mom. This year I did not go back to work at the end of the summer as our family was finally in a position where I could stay home and care for my girls. I substitute a little and have been blessed to pick up some students to tutor in the evenings. I seem to have more energy on those days but more often than not I have found myself feeling that horrible feeling of unmotivation.
I am hoping that this lack of energy has been mostly due to seasonal depression. As the weather gets warmer I am seeing my energy levels rise. But I can't get over how little I have been able to get done over the past two monhs. When I was working I had a reason to stay awake everyday. I missed my kids when I got home so I almost always took advantage of the time I had with them. Not to mention the fact that I had to get food on the table and little time to accomplish any other tasks I needed to get done. Now with the entire day looming ahead down time has become all too familiar. It has become all to easy to let the kids watch a movie or pbs while I take a nap. I find myself being greatfull for the obligations I have throughout the week that help to keep me going and to get my house clean. And yet I also haven't had the will to increase those obligations giving me more reason to get up and get going.
Ultimatly I really do feel with the changing of the weather I will be fine. I have already gotten outside and really enjoyed the time I have spent working on my yard and watching my girls run around barefoot in the 50 degree weather. I am confident that for various reasons next year will be better and that I won't feel as down as I have this year. I have plenty of ideas in my head to keep me busy and with just a sliver more motivation I am sure that next year I will be able to do better. Being home is not easy, and I have often thought of going back to work but I know my children are being blessed and there is'nt anyone better than me to care for their needs.
2 comments:
It is hard to switch between working mom and stay at home. Your awesome and are a good mom. My girls want to play with your girls. When it warms up let's go to the park
It is hard to switch between working mom and stay at home. Your awesome and are a good mom. My girls want to play with your girls. When it warms up let's go to the park
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